Monet Skies & Spiders
Instead of staying stuck in this apparent impasse ~ open your mind to the infinite number of possibilities before you ~ and make a choice.
~ Spider Wisdom from Dr. Steven Farmer
Earlier this week I had a moment of sitting in my car trying to remember if I had eaten lunch. I didn't feel hungry. Being a very visual person ~ it is "typically" easy for me to see the pictures of before. But no image was registering of me putting food in my belly. A tell tale sign that I've had moments of numb. Lost in my mind & wounded in heart.
And then today ~ a spider came to visit me in my car. Of course!
You see when I was in Ireland ~ it became clear to me ... through many visits from the spiritual world in my dreams and my ancient remembering ~ that I was becoming nothing. Choices would be presented to me to help me with that journey.
Wowza! I know. Heavy duty stuff that is going to be a great podcast one day of me retelling that story ~
but I'll drop into the present moment of how it is unraveling in my life now ~
Old wounds are being thrown in my face ~ past mini traumas are being triggered (well, maybe not so mini since they are plaguing my consciousness and stripping me of precious sleep). The Universe has orchestrated the perfect shit storm of happenings all to beg me to release the falsehoods that are no longer serving me.
My biggy is not feeling "seen". I apparently had a lot of those feelings still stuffed in my subconscious from my teenage years all the way into my current age. I have done a lot of soul work to release the old crap but when it comes to moments of not being "seen" ~ well those are the ones that hit me square in the ego identity.
Do you get what I'm laying down? Maybe not ~ since it only just recently hit me square in the 3rd eye of "duh!" So I will explain. I was shown by some pretty loving guides and powerful sages ~ that I was becoming nothing. Meaning ~ the old identity that my ego likes to have stroked is being called to step aside ~ so the old stuff where "Wendy" didn't feel seen is being bubbled to the surface. And boy is it! I won't even get into what occurred (on multiple occasions)...but suffice to say ~
I craved, cried, and screamed for validation ... which was not received ~ but that all needed to happen for the real Wendy to step forward ... the Wendy that is the bubbling ball of energy ~ of light ~ and love that I can feel right now as I type. The Wendy that knows healthy boundaries and how to bring love forward (even in the silent ways that will never receive the validation).
That Wendy is being called to step forward more ~ whew ~ the Universe is conspiring in multiple ways for this to happen and so here we are!!
Always a student and forever a guide of love ~ I am learning to bow more to the spiritual nudges and thus have some incredible Fall spiritual, physical, and mindful offerings lined up.
From Yoga Box (of my so fun!) to Luminous Warrior Woman Retreat (deep dive weekend @ the magical Xanadu Island) to Intuitive Medicine Circle (in the tipi on sacred land) to Drum Making & Shaman Ceremony (with a powerful soul sister).
I am ready! Are you?
Aho my friend!
Excited for our paths to cross on this big challenging yet beautiful life journey we are are all on. And yes ~ tonight had the most beautiful Monet sky. Ahh ~ make a choice to create from the beauty within and all around. Message received!
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