You feel it
The collective is out of balance
The masculine and feminine energies are at war
We know within
Union is the way
Yet wisdom knows that where there is war there is no peace.
And so the crows cawed
They swirled and swarmed
until my fingers became their talons
and my wings turned
Strength. Tenderness. Rawness. Curiosity.
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Yes ~ my soul breathes the wisdom of yoga and my human body also trained with a professional boxer in Washington DC ~ Lawrence...lightweight champ and all around fantastic person. I will never forget the day he asked me this question ...
Lean in a little closer ~ she said. I stepped forward and hugged her warmly ... I could feel her arms drip down in attempts to embrace me in return. The direct exchange of loving energy floated between us ~ and the tree (and I) smiled in unison ~ soaking in the profound connection we were sharing.
Have you hugged a tree lately? Have you gotten in real close to nature and listened to her wisdom?
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Draped in the New Moon energies ~ I will be guiding you to receive “whispers from nature”.
I love soulful adventuring. Throwing my hikers and water bottle in the mini cooper, with my trusty furry co-explorer riding shotgun. And, the mini comes equipped with a journal and yoga mat at my disposal. So when a dear artist friend said, “lets rent a bus and take people to some of your favorite spiritual places”...the heart fluttered with excitement and I knew it would happen.
We sat cross-legged casually facing each other on the bear skin rug. My shaman guide smiled and spoke for the first time “is hawk a spirit animal that works with you”? A smile donned my lips and an audible yes filled the space. “He is circling the parking lot from where you just came”. We both looked out the window and smiled with a deep knowing.
During a recent FaceTime chat with a soul sister, I shared that I had just created a cozy boho space in my basement. I’ve had that little dream in my heart for awhile and it is was so fun to see all the little enjoyable projects turn into something magical.
I remember always being a seeker.
From the moment of sitting in the sandbox, digging and digging, hoping to uncover some magical find yet not realizing in my child like ways that mom and dad had just poured the sand inside a box.
o be right where you are and not…
worry about the future.
As 2017 begins, I have felt drawn towards the beauty of:
power & peace.
action & stillness.
speaking & silence.
The yin & yang of life.
And these words cross my path “Silence is not silent. Silence speaks. It speaks most eloquently. Silence is not still. Silence leads. It leads most perfectly”. ~ Sri Chinmoy
Most perfectly indeed. We are not one without the other.
Blow through me, around me, and within me.
Each of us has a connection to the elements of nature.
For those of you who are creatives & visionaries, or for those of you who hop from one task to the next, from one idea to the next…you embody the qualities of Air. And now that we are in the Fall season…Hold onto your hat!
You may be in for a whirlwind of thoughts almost like a “I’m going crazy” like state of mind.
Because as the Fall season greets us with blowing winds and colorful falling leaves, the element of Air becomes dominant.
Adding to the already Air within.
In yoga’s sister science of Ayurveda, the air & ether elements are referred to as Vatta. (pronounced: vaw taw) When Vatta takes over and dangerously dips into the I’m spinning or should I say blowing out of control energy, everything seems like a Vatta Gotta.
I gotta do this. I gotta do that.
But, if you employ some simple grounding and nurturing rituals during this Fall season…your Vatta Gotta will morph into creative energy. This energy will guide you towards gracious action as you flow into this magical season of change.
Oh ya…a couple of my favorite grounding rituals: warm baths sprinkled with your favorite essential oils (my Fall season blend favorite is lavender, cedar wood, & patchouli)…a few sprinkles of each will do the trick. Post soothing bath, warm some avocado oil (or any oil you like to use on your skin) and massage it in using a twisting motion called Abhyanga (twist like you are ringing out the skin). And, you can’t beat a yummy cup of chai post a soothing yin yoga class.
…To be human is to become visible while carrying what is hidden as a gift to others… ~ David Whyte
The wisdom of nature’s spirit guides will always keep me curious and in awe like a little girl realizing for the first time there is a man in the moon. I live in a place where nature smiles on me daily yet my soul reminds me when needed of my love for the energy amidst majestic mountains. Thus, I decided to heed my inner calling as I ventured to the Evergreen, Colorado area. The night before I hopped on the non-stop jet, that was to take me lurching through the sky, I turned to my Oracle Cards. I asked a simple question: “What do I need to make my trip soul fulfilling?”
The card I turned was “Meadow: Vulnerability” — It is time to step out into the expanse unknown and expose your true self in all aspects of your life. Oh how true that rang for me! As I’ve been truly shedding the safety zone of who I used to be & am fully letting my colors shine of nature girl – shamanic yoga – spirit guide believer – and inspirational mover and shaker for others to shine!
Let me digress for one moment. Oracle Cards. Maybe they are new to you? You may have heard of Tarot Cards? The cards are wisdom cards used to help with spiritual guidance. I once read the difference between the two described as: Tarot Cards follow a set structure to guide you while Oracle Cards are like the rebel without a cause. There is no set structure to follow and you can let your wild hair down and make up your own rules as you receive intuitive & spiritual guidance. I resemble those comments so I’ve recently welcomed a relationship with Oracle Cards.
The deck in which I pulled Meadow has 48 cards and they are called “Earth Magic”. Oh ya! Now, you know why they are my favorite.
Ok, back to the story. So, I finally land my butt on that magical jet plane which is streaming me across great Grandfather Sky and I decide to pull out the cards. I ask a very similar question and then:
Shuffle. Shuffle. Shuffle.
Guess what card turns? Yep, Meadow!
Fast forward a bit to our safe arrival to the wonderful chalet in the mountains. I introduce my dear friend and traveling buddy to the Earth Magic cards our first morning (post coffee of course). And, guess what card I pulled (after much shuffling)? Yep, Meadow! Did you remember that there are 48 cards…yes at this point I needed to double check myself…but I was beginning to get the intuitively guided spiritual message the cards were laying down for me.
On that day 3 of the obligatory Meadow card, we decided to head to Indian Hills Hot Springs. It is raw, natural and maybe a bit old school for those of you who like posh hot spring establishments, but for this nature chick, it was perfect. I slid into a hot pool in a cave surrounded by dark rock covered walls. As I gazed up, my power animal guide Jaguar showed up. She was so clear I thought for sure someone had drawn her face in chalk (insert disclaimer: even as a spiritually guided shamanic practitioner, there are times when things are so crystal clear that I have to wipe my eyes in questioning if I just made that up in my mind). Nope, I could see her on the cave wall and no one had been into those steamy pools with chalk. As I was spending time getting an intuitive message from my dear spirit guide friend, my gaze shifted to the left and a falcon appeared. Falcon? Was it a falcon or condor? I didn’t have google images with me in that dark cave so I just asked “Show me if you are a falcon” and the nose started to point down indicating – yes indeed – it was a falcon.
My friend and I had a great chat about the significance of Falcon spirit guide messages on our drive back to the beautiful mountain abode and of course their guidance was spot on for me.
After a restful nights sleep, our bodies were craving movement after soaking for so long in the hot springs the day before. So we asked our host for a hiking trail recommendation. And guess where she said? “Elk Meadow”. You hadn’t forgotten about the Meadow card of vulnerability yet had you? Well, I hadn’t!
Soon after our chat with our wonderful host & coffee was satiated into our cells, we plopped down on the deck floor with the great sky as our witness (and I believe there were 3 deer resting in the sun behind us too…no kidding…they had to take in what was about to happen next). I shuffle the Oracle cards and jokingly say to my friend “wouldn’t it be absolutely crazy if I pulled Meadow again?”
Shuffle. Shuffle. Shuffle.
I spread the cards and grabbed the one that was calling to me. Yep! Meadow again!! We both looked at each other with eyes as big as an owl on alert and just then…a falcon flies over our heads. A falcon!
We were laughing so hard with spiritual awe, joy, and just pure giddiness with how magical and obvious life can be when you just ask AND listen. My girlfriend paused for a moment between her snorts of laughing and says:
“And..Cue Falcon Man“.
He must have been around the corner somewhere.
Always grateful to the great mysterious Universe and all of her spiritual helpers. Especially grateful to those sweet spirit animals who know I am watching and listening as they show up to make this life journey special, powerful, and in flow with all that is.
Until our sacred paths cross next time,
P.S. After we hiked that beautiful Elk Meadow trail, I felt my raw vulnerability exposed under the guise of nature’s help. The next day the Meadow card was not selected. I had heeded her wisdom.
She crawled out of bed and made the conscious choice to nurture herself. Making her way into the living room, as the rising sun shined his glory on her, she slowly began to move her body. Her breathing was her best friend as she flowed into movements of twists, bends, and extensions. She knew each shape her body took had a name but in that moment labels were far from her thoughts; she was in the moment to just be.
For days (maybe even weeks), her thoughts had returned to questions that all of her outward searching could not answer. She was ready to awaken the intuitive nature of her soul’s wisdom ~ for there is where she knew clarity would come. As her body and breath began to slow into a state of rest, she found herself seated ~ unable to move. She would soon begin to realize that she had tapped into an ancient secret of the yogis from India; meditation. It was in that moment she began to ask the questions that burdened her mind. And then ~ she sat in stillness ~ ready to receive.
Yoga prepares you for meditation.
Over 5000 years ago, yoga was created to prepare the body to sit for long periods of time. It was an energetic tool to help you meditate. For in times of meditation, we shed the stresses that our mind has trouble letting go of and we allow ourselves to wake up to the beauty within and all around.
Mediation prepared me for You.
Not long ago, I was sitting on mother earth in my tipi. I had received a message that I was to lead a Women’s Awakening Festival and while I knew that was truth; I didn’t know where to start and surely google would not give me the answers I sought, so I turned to meditation. I asked my inner knowing, my state of pure awareness or consciousness, to merge with the wisdom of nature all around. It was in that moment I began to feel a spark through the core of my being and I was able to envision a festival to help women heal; heal as they shed the old labels of who they were told to be and choose a new look of authenticity.
Within those visions, I saw hundreds of women gathered around a stage, I heard lovely music and laughter, I saw women creating art, movement, and meditating, and I felt vibration of loving support all around as I saw nature grinning.
Women’s Awakening Festival prepares you for You.
On Saturday, Aug 20th, my meditative vision is coming to life! Women are gathering at Ottertail Lake to raise their vibration as they ignite their intuitive strength and beauty. Along with the guidance of holistic healers & artists from Minnesota to North Dakota to Iowa, each woman will begin to step onto a path that is uniquely theirs. Are you ready to Celebrate YOU? Join the tribe at wendybillie.com
I am dating a recovering adrenaline junky. Well, maybe he isn’t in full recovery as he screams down the street in any fast car he can get his hands on but he has stopped shirtless motorcycle wheelies. Baby steps.
Is driving fast a big deal? Heck no as my mini cooper corners like she is on rails. But when we surround ourselves with incessant intensity (& noise) that is what we are nurturing inside as well. Because…
Everything is energy.
Our precious aura’s pick up on everything. And then we wonder why we can’t slow down the monkey mind or get rid of the anxiety. Re-insert the boyfriend who says he would never be able to meditate because his mind goes non-stop. Ahh…the immediate gratification & instant results society we live in. Meditation takes a slow dedicated practice (probably the same as he needed to learn to hold a motorcycle wheelie for 2 city blocks). If he only knew how I was picking on him…sshhhh.
Let’s take this one step deeper and hop off the pavement onto a different path; a spiritual path. If you are on one, do you wonder why you aren’t receiving the intuitive wisdom to help you make decisions everyday that are in your highest and best purpose?
Your inner knowing and your spiritual posey are ALWAYS there waiting for you to slow down and listen.
Slowing down for you may mean sipping a cup of tea as you silently watch the lake freeze over, or cultivating inner stillness on your meditation cushion, or melting onto your mat in a yoga class…whatever speaks to you…just be sure to…give it a second.
Enjoy my all time favorite Louis CK interviews as he hilariously brings the point home.
Until our paths cross again…wrapping you in love & light,
I caught myself in a little white lie (again). It was super small. Insignificant really. But, the words just found their way out of my mouth.
Do you do it? Of course you do! Well maybe if you have reached a state of pure self love & unwavering acceptance of your authentic soul all the time…maybe then you don’t ever speak them. But, I know I am talking to a human on the other side of this technology device and we all have a tendency to fall into our shadow selves. We see ourselves as somehow less than and not enough. We are conflict avoiders. We are afraid to let our true colors be known. We are out to prove something. And the fib reasons can go on. I am here to confess the ones I occasionally fall victim to:
3 little white lies:
Yet just another reason I love my yoga practice. Since the body never lies, yoga helps to uncover the truth and shed the old lies that have unconsciously been shoved deep into the fascia, cells, nerves, etc. When you harness the breath & melt into yoga postures, you get the old inauthentic energetic kinks out and you shed light onto your true self. You will know what it feels like to truly heal from the inside out.
If you can feel it, you can heal it.
As you feel the tensions release, know that you are tapping into your spiritual self where you have the realization that truth will always set you free. And insert one of my favorite Dr Wayne Dyer messages:
First remember that you are a spirit in a human body rather than a body with a spirit.
We are here to spiritually grow, love, co-create, and above all else to forgive ourselves and others (from all those lies). So embrace this human experience and live it from a point of truth; your growth will accelerate and others will want to join your party since true authenticity is contagiously sexy. Before I close today’s chat, try on this cool mantra outfit (one size fits all):
I am real. I am honest with compassion. I am a truth vibe trend setter.
Trust me when I say; when you wear that outfit it will feel like you are giving yourself a big hug (and I’m not exaggerating). Plus, you will get the most compliments EVER when you wear that outfit!
Until our paths cross again.
In love & light,
As I sit here typing, I am at the tail-end of leading (& partaking) in a Fall Yoga Detox 3-week series. I am not a rookie at seasonal detoxes but this time it seemed different. Not seemed different – it was different. I didn’t feel hungry or deprived as some of you may think pertains to a detox (ok, there was one emotional day where I really wanted a glass of wine), but I realize that was only because I wanted to be comforted. That want was fleeting because I found the comfort elsewhere.
I was comforted in the realization that I am my own best friend.
Big bold realization, right?! How about you? Do you feel all comfy cozy at home with your true self? If not, where are you seeking the external comfort?
When you cleanse out all the “false sense of security junk”, you can see clearly through the door. The door that reveals the light of your soul’s truth & in that place there will be no turning back.
Because you will realize this is the happiest of all places.
If you have been feeling the desire lately to rid your life of unwanted, mind cluttering toxins, and to step into your true joy, maybe you picked up on some of our collective energetic vibrations. For when one person does the work to heal & become their radical self, that energy helps everyone step into their unique truth.
My unique freak flag is up in the air, what about you?
Little BONUS: I’m happy to share a fun yoga detox music playlist with all of you. It is more than fun. It is powerful! Each woman who participated in the yoga detox shared a favorite song which is the compilation of the yoga playlist below. It is their way of flying their unique flag…enjoy!
Knowing – Lucinda Williams
Dream – Priscilla Ahn
Magic – Coldplay
Listen to the Lion – Van Morrison
Gimme Shelter – The Rolling Stones
A Case of You – Joni Mitchell
Fool In the Rain – Led Zeppelin
Night Moves – Bob Seger
Every Rose Has It’s Thorn – Poison
You Are for Me – Kari Jobe
The Story – Brandi Carlisle
By the Grace of God – Katy Perry
(Everything I Do) I Do for You – Bryan Adams
Hey Jude – The Beattles
1000 years – Christina Perri
How Can I Keep From Singing – Enya
Put a Little Love in Your Heart – Mary Mary
Keep the music rolling and feel free to reply to this blog with your favorite song. Your unique addition will help the authentic collective conscious flow.
Until our unique journey paths cross again,
International yoga instructor, Shamanic Practitioner, life coach, and more!